The sum of any number and its opposite is 0.
- I read that in my maths book - blew me away.
- I used to be positive and sometimes I was negative. If I'm neither, according to mathematicians, I'm zero - nada, nothing. Being on an even keel means nothing literally.
- I've only just found that out and it's quite a shock. All that medication and the end result is zero. I don't want that. So as from today I'm going to stop taking the pills, hear those voices again. They were right.
- Cotton wool in my head makes me nothing. Red pills stop me going up, blue ones stop the downs.
- My old friends, the voices are back, laughing - look over there, that was you. I can't see anything and they say no, because you weren't there, there was nothing to see.
- I search for myself - the voices tell me where to look - at first I find nothing.
- And then on a lonely stair I meet a man who looks like me. I speak into his eyes and say,
- “I thought I died a long, long time ago”
- “Oh no,” he says, “I never lost control. You're face to face with the man who rules the world.”
- Outside I gaze at all the millions who must have died a long, long time ago. I weep for them, their was and when. But here and now the lunatic is in my head and it's better, much better than nothing.
